A Weigh To Go--My Weight Loss Journal

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My name is Stacie and I am 27 years old. I'm married to a wonderful man named Alex and we have a beautiful 5 year old daughter named Savannah. I have been battling with my weight since childhood and since giving birth to Savannah in 2000 my weight has just skyrocketed. I have come to a point in my life where I am finally ready to make a lifestyle change to become a happy and healthier wife and mother. My goals are to get my weight, eating habits and blood pressure back under control. I also intend to get my energy level back so I can run and play with my daughter!

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01/16/2006 -- 7lbs gone (pre-WW) 01/23/2006 -- 7lbs gone 01/30/2006 -- 3 lbs gone 02/06/2006 -- 2 lbs gone 02/13/2006 -- 3.6 lbs gone 02/20/2006 -- 3.0 lbs gone 02/27/2006 -- 0.0 lbs gone 03/06/2006 -- 0.4 lbs gone 03/13/2006 -- 1.6 lbs gone Total loss -- 27.6 lbs gone forever!

Sunday, July 24, 2005

Warning........long post ahead!!

Wow it has been almost a year since I last posted. In a way that makes me a little sad because I can't help but think that had I stuck with my diet I might have reached my goal by now.

Anyway..............

I made a huge step forward yesterday. I had been talking about joining a gym and checking out this nutritional/health store near us for some time. Alex and I had a weekend alone so yesterday I made a list of places we needed to go and on that list I placed a few gyms and the nutrition store. Then for some reason I got really nervous.

I think I have been lying to myself for so long about my own health and the weight I have gained for so long that I was afraid to stand up and admit I needed some help. I kept telling myself I wasn't that big. 300 plus pounds to me was big (I mean no offense at all to anyone here, these are just my own feelings)and I wasn't near 300 so I was ok.

But then I got to thinking. After high school I hovered between 180 and 200 lbs for a long time. I was a really skinny kid but somewhere along the line I started gaining weight. Before I knew it I was "the fat kid". Not the fattest kid in my grade but I sure felt like it many times. Of course looking back I was only about 15 to 20 lbs heavier than other kids my age, so I wasn't as huge as my classmates made me feel.

Ok so going back to my point here....... When I was hovering above 200 I had very similar thoughts, I wasn't really big until I hit 200. Then later when I did hit 200 and above I started thinking well I don't look that bad, I'm not that big, big is like 300 lbs. So when I started thinking about my past I realized this pattern right around the time I realized, I was with in 40 lbs of 300. I thought OMG I cannot be 300 lbs, I just can't. Then I would have to admit to myself I really needed some help with my weight.

So here we are sat in the parking lot outside Atilio's Discount and I am suddenly in a panic. I could see from the car that the shop was small. I never liked going into small shops for the simple reason that I knew I was sure to be noticed. I didn't like being noticed. Even if the person was friendly in the back of my mind I always wondered if they were thinking about how fat I was.

I told Alex I didn't want to go in. He was like don't be silly and he got out of the car. So there I was sat in the car. I could instantly feel the car getting warm. We've been in the middle of an excessive heat warning for over a week and the temp outside the car was near 100 degrees.

Ok so obviously I was sitting there with a battle raging in my mind. I knew each second the car would get hotter and that Alex wouldn't leave me the keys because he wanted me to go inside the shop with him. It had been my idea after all. So I got out of the car but didn't start walking towards the shop. I told him again I really didn't want to go in. That I was afraid that walking into that small shop would be the equivalent of walking about with a sign that screamed "Hi! I'm fat, can you help me?" In my mind it would be obvious I hadn't walked into that store for any other reason than to look for weight loss help.

As soon as it came out of my mouth it made both of us laugh and Alex said I dare you to say that when we walk in lol. Ok so a little laughter gave me some resolve and we walked in together. The employees inside (very fit people by the way) were very nice. The woman that came over to us offered to help direct us to the section of the store we'd be interested in but didn't assume we were there looking to lose weight. God love her she even told us where the supplements were to help gain weight lol. I felt pretty at ease with her. We told her we were wanting to lose weight and she asked us if we'd heard about their T-Burn program. I said yes and she said that most people had, it's been around for some time now. Other than that local radio ads though I didn't know much about it.

She patiently and enthusiastically explained all the different supplements, meal replacements, etc that worked together in the program. She shared with us which products she personally liked as well.

They mixed up some meal replacement shakes for us to try and surprisingly it wasn't bad. So we walked about with a family pack 6 week program which did cost us over $300 but it didn't work out to be too bad when we broke it down into cost per week and compared it to what we were spending on food currently.

While she was ringing up our purchases, Alex asked the guy who worked there what gym we goes to. They both said they went to 24 Hour Fitness. They said some really good things about it and it was one of the gyms we had on our list to visit so we went there next.

We spoke about our goals with a counselor and had a tour of the gym. We ended up buying a full year membership each and since we paid the whole year up front we got the next 2 years for free and a set price of $99 per year after that. It gives us access to all their clubs except the Ultra Sport clubs that are in California anyway and 5 sessions each with a personal trainer.

Ok so we started the T-Burn program this morning. The first 2 days are a "detox" period which you can only have this powder you mix with water or juice for breakfast, lunch and dinner, grapes, apples, strawberries and fresh green veggies that have to be grilled or steamed.

Well I was ready to quit hours ago lol. This part sucks and if it was for any longer than 2 days I wouldn't last. I've never stared so longly at food I know I can't have as I did today. I am running to the bathroom ALOT and I'm soooooo hungry. Which of course is resulting in my being quite moody lol.

So I've made it to almost 7:30 pm now. I don't care at all for the veggies we've been steaming in the microwave so I am muching on grapes and apples alot. Stil feel hungry though. I just keep thinking of all the times I have eaten until I was so full it hurt. I'm thinking that this is worth it to break some really ugly habits I have had for some time now.

Tomorrow morning at 9 am I am going to the gym for what I am calling "The how fat am I?" test. It consists of being measured and weighed and figuring my body fat percentage and breathing into this gadget that will tell them what my metabolism is like, etc. Then it's time to exercise. I'm so not looking forward to this. I guess if I loved exercise I wouldn't find myself as overweight as I am right now. I just have never liked to exercise.

They do offer some classes I'd like to try though. One is Aqua Moves and the other is Pi-Yo which is a mix of Pilates and Yoga.

Ok well anyway I guess I have made up for a year of not blogging in this one post lol.

I'll be posting again very soon I am sure. Hugs to everyone!

Stacie was getting smaller @9:03 PM

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